Bitter Sweet Symphony

Life.... How is it that what makes life exciting can at the same time make life almost depressing? I'm currently faced with the fact I may have to move away for a job and leave the people I know and love the most. One side of me is excited and craving the adventure of a move, going somewhere new, and being an explorer. The other part of me wants to be around my family, friends, and church. Today at church, as really every week I'm there, I look around and say to myself I'm so glad God has put me here, I'm so glad God is using me in a ministry to serve here. I walk away each week filled with joy. I know God can use me somewhere else just the same and maybe even more. I'm aware that God has complete control over all of it. However, man... I don't want to leave Apex. So we come upon the "Bitter Sweet Symphony." God has given me a wonderful church body to serve in, along with the chance to move and experience new things which will require leaving behind brothers and sisters in Christ I love. A huge part of me is praying that God will suddenly open a door here for me to stay, but everyday that goes by, that seems less likely. To all of you here in good ol O-H-I-O , if I do move soon, distance won't seperate us in heart, and well, I'll be back as much as funding allows..... grrrr.. Why did I have to get inolved in youth ministry? I think moving would be sooooo much easier if it wasn't for all the junior high students I've grown to know and look forward to every conversation I have with them. Looking for the opportunities to share more of Christ with them and how in spite of our crappy mistakes we've made in life He still loves us and wants to use us in amazing ways... ah the wonders of Grace.
Okay, this is turning into a rambling.. which if u check my blog often... sorry, thats what you might get from time to time, but hey, most of you asked for my weird, wacko ramblings.. AND lets not forget my HORRIBLE spelling