A Designer in Awe of the First Designer

Wednesday, November 28, 2007

Growing 20's

They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about
yourself that you didn't know and may not like.

You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or
two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now. You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the, people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones.

What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and
aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you. You look at your job... and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.

Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused.
Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person. One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot don't seem as fun. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the
same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.

You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for
yourself... and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!

What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out. "Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away." It's really amazing when two strangers become the best of friends, but it is really sad when the best of friends become two strangers! "Give time to love, give time to speak, and give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind" -George Carlin

Friday, January 19, 2007

Thoughts on Romans

So currently, in my Bible study we are going through Romans. This week we are on Romans 4. Some in the group think this chapter is one of the harder ones to follow and understand. I on the other hand think it's the most clear chapter out of all of Romans. I think Paul is much more linear with this chapter then his bouncing around back and forth between mutliple topics in other chapters.
Anyway. There is one major thing that I took away from Romans 4. Something really hit me as to Abrahams faith. The jist of the chapter is to show how Abraham, the father of the Jews, had faith before he was even technically a Jew. This is an illustration from Paul to prove the fact that both Gentiles and Jews are saved through faith, that it isn't the law that saves. There is more to this fact, but I'm not going to get into it. Back to what I really took away from this Chapter.
Verses 20-22 say : 20Yet he did not waver through unbelief regarding the promise of God, but was strengthened in his faith and gave glory to God, 21being fully persuaded that God had power to do what he had promised. 22This is why "it was credited to him as righteousness."
Abraham was giving God glory and praise for something that hadn't even happened yet. That amazes me. So much in our current culture of church, we definately praise God, but we praise God for what he HAS done, not so much for what he is GOING to do. This is something I'm going to try and put into practic. I really believe we are missing out on expanding the strength of our faith by not praising God for what he is going to do instead of just praising Him for what he has done.

Thursday, January 11, 2007

false advertising

Comcast completely false advertises for itself when they use the phrase, "Comcast, it's Comcastic" to try and convince you it is fantastic. However there is nothing further from the truth. In their recent buy out of Adelphia, I have had nothing but frustrations. My in Demand channels never work, and they say that there is no compensation for that because they are technically free. But here is what really annoys me.. the prices. With adelphia, my HD DVR box was $6.95 a month. Not cheap, but not really a bad price either. Now that it is Comcast, it is $16.95 a month!!!!! for a DVR box?? SERIOUSLY???!!! Comcast is not Comcastic, it's Comhorrible. I'm seriously considering doing without cable just so that I don't have to deal with them.

Tuesday, January 02, 2007


What do you do when you just don’t want to go on anymore? Not that you want life to end, but you just want to give up trying in it anymore. When you reach the point that you yourself are to blame for things becoming a mess and there is no way to pick up the pieces of life that you shattered like a window obliterated by a boys baseball. Only this wasn’t as instant of a crash of sewn leather on glass. It was more of that every so slow creaking of ice under your body when you have found yourself on thin ice in the middle of a huge lake. You can only watch as the ice slowly separates under your feet. You know moving will only make it disintegrate faster, but staying in one place is not going to save you either. Your mind knows that all is not lost. There are ways out, you can move on, however you will be cold, frozen, and hurt. A piercing freeze that will be felt for a long time.

The New Year

2006 was rough. 2007 is allready starting out rougher.

Monday, December 11, 2006

Venison Anyone?

Hunting is pretty big back in Ohio, but I think I've found a place where it is even bigger. Northeast PA seems to be the place where time stops for hunting. Every school is closed on the first day of hunting season. I found this picture on our local news' website. It pretty much explains it all.

Wednesday, November 29, 2006

On the Move Again?

Well, it seems that I may be on the move career wise. The fun part is. I have options. I'm blessed that God has graced me with possibly providing mutliple choices. The irony of course is that I'm not blessed with the gift of typically making FAST choices. I have a possible job offer at Mattel in L.A. , a possible offer at a consulting firm in Minneapolis, and even a job here in Scranton.. believe it or not there are other companies using Industrial Design here. I was contacted by one to my surpise. On the downside, it is for Pride Mobility.. that's right, I'll be designing Jazzy's!!! woohoooooo. Everyone better be nice to me, you coulde depend on me for your comfort of mobility in your senior age! I'm not sure I'll take any one of these jobs, We'll see how it goes, but for now, things are looking interesting. My continued prayer is for something in Ohio, although, with the switch in politics that seem to be taking place back home, maybe I should reconsider that thought.

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

I Must Be Getting Old

It has happened.. I'm old. Want to hear the reason? I have my first ever complaint about how something someone is wearing is absolutely ridiculous. Take a look at this picture. Are my Ohio State Buckeyes wearing shorts... or SKIRTS?!?
I mean, you can't tell me that you can honestly dribble the ball better between your legs while wearing SKIRTS to your mid calf muscle. Whats next? wearing hoodies with i-pods in their ears while they are playing? At least that is somewhat stylish though.. I didn't know skirts where in fashion this year in the mens section.