awesome t-shirts

If you haven't allready been to this website, or perhaps you have but are now finally ready to buy one of thir t-shirts.. do it through my link!! Because I get commision for each sale that is sold through my link.. which is kinda cool. All I had to do was sign up, advertise for them, and I get money. And it's not even a scam!!! Thats the best part :-) I believe Relevient actually advertises for them also which is cool. SOOOOO if you want to buy something from them, make sure you do it through my link yo! or else.... or else... u don't even want to know what the or else is :-) enough rambling.. here is the flippin sweet link

thinking

So I have a thought process going on, and I'm not sure it will really make any sense... so bare with me. What defines us? Is it who we want to be in our hearts, or who we are through our actions? I know that at first you want to say.. "well who we are through our actions.. DUH! I mean, your actions reflect who you are in your heart." But that isn't necessarily so true. I know for myself that I definately have more hope to do whats right in my heart then what I actually carry out in my actions. Which is why I'm writing about this. I find it very emotionally draining. It seems I can't live up to the standard I set for myself, and before you ask, yes, it is an abtainable standard. Because of the drain, such a big part of me wants to just say.. okay, this is how I am, I'm going to accept it and not try to hard to strive for that standard, cause I just seem to always screw up. But is that being apathetic? How do we deal with this? I know there are some very cookie cutter answers for this one, but I'm looking for a not so cookie cutter, thought provoking thought on this.. Anyone? ... any of the 4 of you who read my blog that is :-) lol